2014 Resolution

I blew my "Do not eat fast food" resolution on January 3rd but I still have hope that I will pull through with the resolution I made with my husband. We blew this challenge a while ago, but are at it again. 

We will watch one movie a week together this year. Starting on Monday one of us gets the whole week to chose a movie that we will watch together. It must be one that at least one us us has not seen, and if we do not declare out choice by Saturday night, the other gets to steal. We flipped a coin and I got to chose first. I picked The Wolverine.  I did not get to the Redbox in time so instead I picked up Django Unchained and This is the End with Django being my choice. 

SIGH. Now that I have experienced Django, my soul needs to be scrubbed cleaned. I had to ask to pause it and get my self together a couple of times. It just felt so upsetting and I reached the point where I wonder if I need to see these types of movies. I don't see horror movies anymore because they upset me. I'm mostly not a fan of revenge movies because I tend not to be happy about the comeuppance so much as linger on the dark nature of humanity that feels they can wrong others in such a horrible way.

Noting my depression as the credits started, my husband quickly gave me a mulligan and let me claim This is the End as my pick for the week. And because people are not responsible with someone else's property, the disk skipped constantly one hour in and we could not finish. I called customer service as I didn't want to toss the disk back in the machine so someone else could get screwed. They flagged the disk and I think my duty has been done.

Week one is completed, but at what cost? I thought I would finally have an excuse to see There Will Be Blood and No Country For Old Men finally, but if the dramas are going to drag me down, I'm not sure I'll want to continue. I think resolutions are supposed to make you better, right? Well, I also promised myself a book a month. I could cancel this stuff out with books from my favorite comedians. I don't want to fall into the books like In Her Shoes. Sisters don't get along, like me and my sister, sound good. Wait mother committed suicide? Uggg, why must I have this compulsion to complete these books once I started?