I was very excited to hear the Sklars were doing a show in San Francisco. I
was all geared up to get my bearings and meet my husband after work to them as
it is so unfair to ask him to go on weekends since he already goes five days a
week.
And then the jury duty summons came and I was crushed. Not so much because
they finally called me, but I'm not strong enough to do so much at once. I'll
admit my anxiety is ridiculous and I let it stop me from many things. In this
case though, I let my resolve consume me and I bought those damn tickets.
That's right!
After being a member of the justice squadron, I took my nap and hoped I
could be at my peak for this show. I did well. I had my food rations, I got on
public transit and using my previous experiences, knew what triggers to expect
and squashed all beginning phases of panic. I even had people ask me about
train schedules. I didn't know the answer, but I had Google to tell me
how.
Through my terrible navigation I made it to my husband's office and realized
eating is a good idea. Downed my pre-packed dinner and with my legs starting to
feel fatigue I gently requested a cab instead of walking. Best ten bucks of the
night spent.
I hate general admission. People today have no problems showing up hours
early to get good seats. I want to be rich so I can slip someone some money and
get a good view. But I could see the stage and was happy to get this comedy
started.
I see so many commercials for energy shots and the big claim is no crash
afterwards. I do not take energy anything, but my crash came about eight thirty
that night. I know performers develop a thick skin but many still fixate on the
one person in the room not laughing. To that poor opening and middle act,
please know that if I were in any other state of mind, I’d be cracking up. You were great. But on this night, I could
not muster the energy to smile. My body was betraying me and I got just enough
strength in me to tell my husband that I wanted to go home. It was my night and
he told me that he wanted to stay, but knowing me, if I wanted to leave, we
could.
I love him so much. I was nearly shaking and wanted to find a bed and sob
into a pillow. Instead I went into the bathroom and cried through the middle
act. When that nervous energy left me, I was calm and ready to tough out the
show I wanted to see.
It was within ten seconds that they came on stage and I was captivated by
laughs. Soon my panic and exhaustion was gone and all that was left was a
desire to scream ZOOM after every punch line. Can't remember the last time I
was allowed to laugh so loudly in public. The show ended and I silently cursed
the waitress for taking so long to get me the bill. She was a good server so I
tipped well, but I didn't want to wait forever to meet the Sklars after the
show. The line moved quickly and they were still very energetic. I told them I
was promised a hug and a Henderson and they delivered. Like the good geeks they
are, asked if I wanted my new Sklarbro Country shirt signed or kept pristine.
They signed my ticket and I got a totally rocking picture with my favorite
comedy twins.
I was so jazzed as we left it didn't occur to me that I had to pee. It
became very apparent when I was reminded there were no bathrooms available at the
station. I used my politeness to get back into the club and use the bathroom.
This time my release was biological and not emotional. I went home that night
very content that I did not bail on a chance to meet two of my comedy heroes.
Even better, my husband was proud of me. I know I'm a big coward, but there are
some experiences where I will rise to the occasion. Promise me a hug and a
Henderson and that will be one of them.
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